Notes From the Quiet Corner

Does it ever get easier?

I feel like I’m in a constant state of nothing I do being good enough. I try. So hard. I am always the one trying to make things work and figure it out. The only one.

We agreed to homeschool our child. Both of us decided. Together. But now? It feels like the wrong decision. Someone who is supposed to be my partner has become unbearable. In his eyes I never do enough. Nothing is done. I don’t make money. Everything is on him. Yelling. Berating. Stomping. Slamming. We are walking on eggshells and I don’t know if I can do this anymore.

I understand he works full time. I know he’s missing out during the day. I know he *sometimes* has longer days. I’m thankful he chose that path so we could homeschool. I wouldn’t have chosen it if I knew how we would be treated in return.

We should have left when we had the chance.